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Hello all,

As I mentioned in my last blog post, I have relocated my blog to www.kerririchardson.com. Because you were subscribed to this blog, I took the liberty of subscribing you to the new one.

You will receive a confirmation email for the subscription, so if you’d rather not be subscribed, simply disregard the note and you won’t receive new posts. If you would like to be subscribed, please click the link in the email to confirm your subscription.

I hope you’ll join me at my new home. I look forward to staying in touch!

Best,

Kerri Richardson

Published in: on April 5, 2010 at 9:32 pm  Leave a Comment  

I’ve Moved!

I want to thank you all for your interest in my blog over the years. It’s been great knowing you’re out there reading it! If you aren’t already aware, I’ve moved my blog to my newly designed website, and I’d love for you to come with me!

You can find my new site/blog at www.kerririchardson.com. There you can both subscribe to my periodic newsletter as well as subscribe to my new blog.

To subscribe to the blog simply click on any link on the home page, and you’ll see a subscription box in the left margin of the page. That’s where you can enter your email address and you’ll continue to get new blog posts delivered to your email.

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Love, Kerri

Published in: on February 23, 2010 at 1:40 pm  Leave a Comment  

Let It Flow!

My office feels incredible this morning! The energy is flowing, the air is clear, and life is good!

Yesterday, I dedicated a good portion of the night to cleaning out my filing cabinet. I went through past client files and statements and piled up notes, documents, and details no longer relevant or needed. I ceremoniously released that history through burning the pages in my fireplace and offering blessings to the clients, creditors, and anyone else affiliated with the experiences. I wished them well as I sent them on their way and offered them love and abundance as they continue their journeys. I now have only current and relevant items in the cabinet and open file folders inviting more incredible people to partner with me as they learn and grow.

I also rearranged the desk in my office, so now, instead of having a window to my right to glance out of, it is right here in front of me so I can even more easily look out at the gorgeous field across the street. By turning my L-shaped desk in this new way, I’ve also opened up the energy flow track from the door. Before, it would get abruptly stopped by my desk and all the necessary cords and wires from computers, modems, and printers. Now I can feel it swirling in easily and gently encircling me and my work space.

Today, after clients, writing, and some other work, I plan on organizing the closet more effectively, re-configuring an outlet so it’s controlled by the light switch, and smudging my office as the final touches to this magnificent space. What a way to start the new decade!

While these projects are on the bigger side, it’s so good to remember that even the smallest attention to the smallest of details gets the energy flowing better in my world. So, what needs your attention? What’s one, small thing you can do right now to address it? Well, what are you waiting for? :-)

Published in: on January 4, 2010 at 1:37 pm  Comments (7)  

This Blog Post is Amazing!

This is the most amazing blog post you’ll ever read. Really, truly amazing. Like, oh my gosh, so AMAZING.

Am I alone in thinking that the word “amazing” has become way overused? Everything seems to be amazing these days. “That’s an amazing shirt.” “I just made the most amazing cheesecake.”

Amazing, by definition, means causing great surprise or sudden wonder. It’s a bit of a stretch to say a piece of cake causes sudden wonder.

Now I’m not without fault. I throw out my own “amazing” now and then, but as I grow more tired of hearing it, I at least put forth some effort to pull a different adjective from my vocabulary arsenal. Besides, when everything is amazing, really nothing is.

Like Alanis Morissette sings in her song “One” – “Did you just call her amazing? Surely we both can’t be amazing.” Au contraire, Ms. Morissette, apparently everything and everyone can be amazing. I mean, look at how many times I used the word in this blog – 16  (including title and image, for those of you who I know will count).

Sixteen uses. Now THAT’S amazing.

Published in: on December 10, 2009 at 12:17 am  Comments (4)  

The Watch Graveyard

Does everyone have one? A box or a drawer filled with watches whose batteries have long since died? I forget about mine until I go to choose a watch to wear, always to find my only option is gold. What’s a girl to do if her outfit calls for a sporty one? Or, heaven for bid, silver? Usually I opt to go without. But I walk away frustrated.

Sure, there are worse problems in the world, but sometimes it’s the little things like this that just nag at you. Every time I open that drawer in my jewelry armoire – enter aggravation.

I remember one December years ago, Missy got the batteries replaced in my favorite watches, wrapped them up, and gave them to me for Christmas. It was one of the best gifts I’ve ever received. She laughed it off, thinking it was silly to wrap them up like they were new. What she didn’t realize is that what she actually wrapped up in those boxes were thoughtfulness, relief, evidence of my really being seen by her, and the remedy for the consistent loss of energy around the dead watches. I felt like I had gotten a huge energy transfusion!

Well, my intention was to write a quick, quirky entry for my blog, but perhaps there’s a moral to this story after all. Maybe consider this a sign to think differently about the gifts you give others this holiday season. How about instead of a gift card or another candle, there’s a project you could help a loved one finish – or begin. Is there an event your Mom, Dad, brother, sister, or best friend would love to go to, and going with you would make it even more special? There’s no gift more precious than your time (and if my batteries were replaced in my watches, I could tell you the time).

Published in: on November 30, 2009 at 1:01 pm  Comments (2)  

The Kramer Chronicles, Part III: The Reunion

Wow. I can’t believe it’s been almost six months since I’ve written. Well, as promised – here’s the next installment of The Kramer Chronicles. The Reunion piece has taken a different form. It was my intention to share stories of Kramer, Missy, and I coming together again when we moved to Boston, however, we’ve experienced a reunion of a different kind.

Less than four weeks after saying goodbye to our dear companion, Kramer, Missy calls me from work. “So, I got an email from a woman in the accounting department.” Instantly my mind started racing. Did they make a mistake in her paycheck? Are we getting some bonus cash? OK, maybe I should stop trying to guess in my head and just listen. “What about?” I said. And the rapid ramble began.

“Well, it seems her cat had kittens and she brought some of them in and I went down to see them and they’re so cute and they’re only six weeks old so they can’t leave their mom yet and there’s one who has a beard like Kramer did and I know it’s really soon, but they’re soooooo cute and we should really go see them together because what if maybe the beard is a sign and Kramer wants us to welcome a new kitten into our lives. I dunno. What do you think?”

That’s not what I was expecting at all with an email from accounting. My initial reaction was No way! Too soon! I am still missing Kramer big time and how dare we even consider replacing him like this. Plus, after taking care of a sick cat for so long, I was spent. I needed a break. So I hemmed and hawed and finally agreed to just go see them.

Yeah, I know what you’re thinking – like I’m not going to come home with one if I go see them. Well, you’d be wrong. We came home with two – adorable sisters who love to wrestle, cuddle, and play together. Their names are Kiva and Kaya. Check them out below – how cute are they? Kiva is the calico one (on the left) and Kaya is the gray and white.

The Babies

This is when they were just bitty babies.

Not only have we been reunited with Kramer in the spirit sense (I see and feel him around me often), but Kaya has so many traits and idiosyncracies similar to Kramer, I’m convinced he sent these babies our way. While it took some adjustment to the new little ones much sooner than we had planned, we are so thrilled to have them in our lives. And thanks, Kramer, for coming back to us in many different ways.

Published in: on November 10, 2009 at 8:24 pm  Leave a Comment  

Kramer Abu Richardson Silk: 1994-2009

It’s with a very heavy heart that I write this update. On Friday, May 22nd, around 1 PM, our beloved Kramer’s spirit was released. In a ceremony honoring his wishes communicated to us through an animal intuitive, we surrounded him in love and beauty. It was a gorgeous, sunny day – Kramer’s favorite for being outside together. We arranged the chairs on the deck in the way he wished, placed a beautiful rose bush my parents gave me near us, and had soft, guitar music playing.

Kramer basking in the sunshine

Kramer loved to bask in the sun. Here, he's stopping to smell the... well... plant.

After the veterinarian arrived to administer the humane euthanasia, Missy and I took a couple extra minutes with Kramer, holding him and telling him how much we love him, and how free his spirit was going to fly now without the weight of his ill physical body. The vet then joined us and I sat in the chair he wanted me in, with his favorite blanket on my lap, and placed him on it. Missy knelt down next to him to be close to his sweet face (again, his wishes), and placed her hand on his side, petting him. I placed my hand on hers and closed my eyes, sending Kramer messages in my mind, “Be free now, baby. Fly free.” Repeating this over and over like a mantra, I hoped to calm my energy for him and to help him transition with light and love.

The process began, and less than a minute later, I felt Kramer’s body ever-so-gently get heavy on my lap and in our hands. He slowly moved from a seated position to laying, and a huge wave of peace came over me. The gentle and loving veterinarian and her technician stepped inside to give us time with our boy. We each kissed his head and thanked him for all the gifts he has given us. Finally, I looked up and said, “Don’t forget to stay in touch.”

For most of the afternoon, the overriding feeling we both were experiencing was peace, which was so incredible. We were so thankful that we listened to his requests and created such a beautiful setting in which he could transition. As nighttime came, sadness overtook, as I guess we should have expected. We know that sadness will be with us for quite some time, but it doesn’t take away from the relief we feel that he is now free. We just need to allow ourselves to grieve as often and as long as necessary.

Having made the appointment in advance due to how weakened he had become, the three of us spent extra quality together time in the back yard the night before. Kramer decided to venture into the neighbor’s yard, and, for the first time, stepped up into their beautiful labyrinth. How incredibly fitting. We know he wanted to let us know he was ready for his peaceful journey. He’s a pretty amazing cat. Here he is the night before:

Labyrinth

Because he had been sick for a while, we knew this day was coming. While it doesn’t make it any easier, we are so incredibly grateful for the gift of being able to consciously walk with him to the end of his physical life and do all those things together that most people wish they could have done when a death is sudden. We love and miss our handsome man so, so much. Thanks to all the people in our lives who knew him, loved him and played a part in his almost 15-year journey.

It’s my intention to finish the Kramer Chronicles, but I make no promises as to when the next installment will come. I feel like it could be very soon or it could be a while. I’m just going to honor where I’m at each day.

Published in: on May 23, 2009 at 1:40 pm  Comments (2)  
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The Kramer Chronicles, Part II: The Separation

After living in West Springfield for three years, Missy and I decided to separate for a bit to be certain that we were ready for what could come our way should we move forward with telling friends and family about our relationship. Fortunately for me, Missy’s parents weren’t too keen on the idea of having a pet, so no discussion was needed about who would take Kramer. He was coming home with me!

My parents, who have always been animal lovers (I grew up with almost every animal imaginable), were happy to welcome another pet home. And, because they still lived in the house where they raised seven kids, there was plenty of room upstairs for us to have our own little apartment.

While it was a tearful goodbye for Missy and me, and for Missy and Kramer, we knew we’d be seeing each other frequently. Well, as frequently as we could now living 2 hours apart.

Kramer was so not a fan of the long drive to our new place, and he made it vocally known the entire way. Other than that, we settled in pretty quickly. He had alone time during the day to acclimate while I worked in the family business a couple miles down the road.  Every now and then my Mom said she could hear him running around, having a grand old time. He’s always been a pretty easy-to-please cat.

Ever curious, here's Kramer peeking from on top of the dresser. "Whatcha doin', Mama?"

Ever curious, here's Kramer peeking from on top of the dresser. "Whatcha doin', Mama?"

Like most cats, he loved to sit in the window, so when I’d leave for work, I’d leave some open for him to sunbathe in. One day, Mom calls me at work.

“Hi Kerri, it’s Mom. First off, Kramer is fine.”

That’s never a good start to a conversation. My heart leapt into my throat. “What’s wrong??”

“Well, I was doing dishes, and when I looked out the window into the backyard, I saw Kramer walking alongside the house.”

“How the heck did he get out?? He can’t even get downstairs!”

“Well, I went outside to get him and noticed the window screen on the ground. So I guess he took it upon himself to get out – from the second floor.”

I hung up the phone and jumped in my car. I got home, scooped him up, and squeezed him. He seemed totally unfazed, rolling around in the grass. He’s always had this “It’s all good” attitude. Another Kramer life lesson we’re still trying to adopt. Shortly after this incident, I received another call at work. It was dejá vu. “Hi Kerri, it’s Mom. Kramer did it again, and he’s fine.” Off I went again to check him out and put him back upstairs… and put the screen back in the window. Lesson learned – only crack the window from here on.

With just the two of us now, Kramer took a liking to sleeping in, what I call, the “nook” – inside the curve of where my arm meets my shoulder. OK, my armpit. :-) He trained me pretty quickly to get in position for him. If my arm was down by my side, he’d lick it. Because the sandpaper feel of his tongue bugged me, I’d move my arm. The first time, I didn’t move it completely out if his way, so he continued to lick it until it was up next to my head so he could curl up in the nook. This became our nightly ritual; one I would come to cherish. Of course when Missy came to visit, I became invisible, but I appreciated the fact that they had limited time together, so gave them their space.

Just as he was my loyal companion in West Springfield, Kramer was my guiding light for the year or so that Missy and I lived apart – always was and always has been a walking example of unconditional love. He has the incredible ability to love me enough for the both of us when I find myself in a place of not feeling too loving of myself. I don’t know how I would have survived that year without him, my little Angel.

Coming up next: The Kramer Chronicles, Part III: The Reunion

Published in: on May 21, 2009 at 12:18 pm  Leave a Comment  

The Kramer Chronicles, Part I: Welcome Home

Our beloved kitty, Kramer, continues to persevere despite his illness that’s slowly making it harder and harder for him to do so. I will cherish these special moments I’m having with him for a long time to come.

In honor of our loving and loyal companion, I wanted to capture some stories of the joys, trials, and laughter that Kramer has given us over the years. Welcome to the Kramer Chronicles, Part I: Welcome Home.

Just a year out of college, Missy and I had an apartment in West Springfield, MA. Missy knew how hard it was for me living in an area where I knew no one and nothing. She grew up in this part of the state, so had lots of connections – family, friends, familiar sights. Since she and I were still acclimating to our relationship, we hadn’t announced it to anyone in our lives. I’ve never experienced a more isolating feeling. To help keep me company as I got to know the area, Missy surprised me one night with a super-fluffy, super-cute kitten. I burst into tears and held him close to my heart. I was immediately in love. And now that I think about it, that would make Kramer the first one to know about Missy and me. :-) Just one of the many special roles he has played in our lives.

Kramer the Kitten sitting in the window of our first apartment. West Springfield, MA. 1994

Kramer sitting in the window of our first apartment. West Springfield, MA. 1994

As I held him, he was trembling a bit and talking in his little, kitty voice. I put him down so he could explore, and explore he did – under the bed, behind the couch, and any place else he could hide. Although it was hard not to constantly pick him up and squeeze him, we let him have his time to get used to the sights and smells of his new home. He scurried about, a  bit erratically, as we sorted through ideas for names. “‘Abu’ could be cute,” I said. “You know, the monkey from Aladdin?” (We had recently been to Disney World so it seemed relevant at the time :-/). With a shrug of her shoulders, Missy didn’t seem too enthused with that name. Then, with a clawing sound to catch our attention, we see our new addition climbing the door frame as if it’s a tree. ” How about ‘Kramer,’ like the character in Seinfeld? I’d say he seems a bit spastic, too, don’tcha think?” Missy smiled. “Yup, Kramer it is.” Well, technically his full name is Kramer Abu Richardson Silk. But, when he misbehaves, it’s just Kramer Silk (said in a firm, parental voice) ;-) .

It wasn’t long before he was entertaining us with games of fetch. His toy of choice? A balled up piece of paper. Yup, it’s the simple things in life that matter – a lesson we gleaned from him early on. He learned quickly to get in position either by the sound of our voice saying “Get it, Kramer!” or the sound of the paper being crinkled. He’d get low, ready to attack, shaking his little butt back and forth. We’d throw the paper ball into the kitchen from the living room and watch him launch, run, and slide across the linoleum – often past the paper ball, and sometimes right into the wall! He’d then pick up the ball in his mouth and jog proudly back into the living room, dropping it at my or Missy’s feet. “He does know he’s a cat, right?” I said. And we’d throw again. Throw, repeat, throw, repeat. I don’t know who was having more fun, us or him. We would be hysterically laughing at the idea of this cat playing fetch, and his energy and spirit would be beaming at the excitement of it all. Oh how I loved this little fuzz ball!

That “Get” word, followed by the desired object, would trigger him to “Get the ball”, or, if we looked up, to “Get the buggy” if there was a fly or moth in the house. He loved to play with the moths. Alright, some would call it torment, but I know he saw it as playing. He’d gently take the moth’s wing in his mouth and toss the bug. Then he’d chase it and do it again. When he’d get over excited and actually eat the moth, he’s spend the next 10 minutes or so searching for it. “Kramer, you ate your friend, honey,” I’d tell him. “He’s all gone. They’ll be another…”

Sometimes just a “Get it!” alone would grab his attention. Even today, at almost 15 years old and not feeling his best, we whisper “Get it!” and we still get a bit of a tail wag. It’s so fun to see his kitten traits still shining through.

Below are some more photos of our time in West Springfield (click the thumbnails to make them larger) -

  • Kramer claiming his favorite chair. Despite our intent to get rid of it many times over the years, we couldn’t bring ourselves to take it from him. He still sits in today.
  • Our one and only Christmas tree in the apartment once we learned what he was doing during the day.
  • The bathtub – another of his favorite hang-out spots
  • And he loved to rip up toilet paper. If we didn’t remember to remove the roll before leaving for the day, they’d be nothing left but shreds

Pomp Tree Tub Shred

I look forward to re-living more memories of our precious companion in future installments of The Kramer Chronicles!

Coming up next: The Kramer Chronicles, Part II: The Separation

Published in: on May 18, 2009 at 12:19 pm  Comments (1)  
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If I Could Talk to the Animals…

I had a pretty incredible experience today that gave me such a sense of both exhilaration and peace.

Kramer's model pose

Kramer's model pose

As most know by now, Melissa and I have been dealing with a pretty sick kitty. Our cat, Kramer, was diagnosed with vaccine-induced fibrosarcoma. It’s a form of a very regionally-aggressive cancer that seems to be caused by the rabies vaccine. Our baby has a large tumor on his right, rear leg – pretty high up. The past months have been spent meeting with specialists of all kinds to determine our best course of action, as we understand this to be a terminal diagnosis. (As an aside, I’d encourage all you pet owners, particularly cats, to speak with your vet about this issue. It seems it’s mostly caused by the 3-year vaccine versus the 1-year, but they’re not certain that the 1-year can’t be the culprit as well. While they claim it is rare (about 1 in 10,000 cats), I still feel it is extremely important to discuss with your vet. Should I have any more cats in the future, I plan on strongly considering not vaccinating them.)

Back to my incredible experience… Melissa and I have consulted with vets, oncologists, and homeopaths in an effort to help our little man. The strongly suggested treatment was full amputation of the leg, including the hip area, followed by chemo and radiation. After much consideration, we decided not to put him through that as we feared the stress of those procedures alone could be fatal. It was a difficult decision, but one we feel is in his best interest, not necessarily ours. So while I feel like we’ve been doing a darn good job of tending to him in a most compassionate and Kramer-centered way, we both had a strong sense of needing to know more – from the man himself.

A loving and dear friend of mine, John, connected me with a colleague of his who is an intuitive. Danielle MacKinnon communicates with both humans and animals, and I was eager to speak with her to learn what Kramer wants or needs during this difficult time. And what I learned was unbelievably helpful. Here’s a bit of a recap:

As I imagined, Kramer strongly senses the anxiety and worry we have about him. What I didn’t realize is that he feels responsible for our worry, so he is trying to wish away his leg to calm us down. Danielle told me that he doesn’t even see the leg as a part of him; that it’s disconnected. Both because he doesn’t want to wrap up his entire identity in his illness, and because it’s causing us all stress. He said that he can handle the leg, but doesn’t think I can. :-) He also said to her, “I want the leg. Don’t get rid of it.” That was incredible, because Danielle had no idea that that was the recommended treatment! “OK, I’m going to pass along this message,” she said. “I don’t know what it means, but here goes.” I then told her that it was an option we were encouraged to strongly consider and that we both felt like it wasn’t the right move. It was so great to get affirmation that we did the right thing.

Kramer kept referring to his tumor as the “tight ball,” and I was so concerned that he’s really suffering from it, but I now know that he’s not in debilitating pain; that his leg does feel weak and a little achy, kind of like your muscles after a workout. Danielle taught me how to do some energy healing work on him around his “tight ball” to help alleviate the discomfort. We tested it while on the phone and I could feel the loving energy strongly in my body, and coursing into my fingertips! Truly amazing.

She said that Kramer loves when I hand feed him (mind you, she had no idea that I had been doing this because his appetite has been very weak). He prefers that over eating from his dish (oh, great, this should be fun!). He says he can tell my anxiety lessens when I do that, and, as a result, he feels better. Apparently, our worry about him is where most of his discomfort is coming from. So our job during this time is to be with him with less anxiety (easier said than done!). He kept communicating to her, “No more worry energy.” She recommended getting some Rescue Remedy (homeopathic drops used for anxiety) and putting some in his water. Oh, and she also recommended putting some in MY water. :-)

I learned so many important things during our talk – that I have the ability to do some powerful energy work, that Kramer wants me to gently – and briefly! – massage around his “tight ball,” that he wants us to try and be with him in the way we were before his diagnosis, and to occasionally feed him Wendy’s hamburgers (don’t ask).  :-)

That is just a sampling of what I learned, and Kramer shared, during our time together. There were several specific things she spoke of that she could never have known otherwise. So, believe what you will. All I know is that I’m a believer, and now feel much better about how to tend to him. I am so, so grateful to Johnny for making this connection. Upon thanking him (in tears), in his signature humility,  he simply said, “That’s what friends are for.”

Published in: on April 16, 2009 at 7:42 pm  Comments (5)  
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